Monday, February 9, 2009

This Time Around

This pregnancy feels different somehow. The other day, when someone asked me if I was pregnant, I completely forgot that I was and answered, "Oh, no, but we're trying." A split second after I responded, I remembered that I was pregnant. Maybe it's some defense mechanism kicking in after two miscarriages. Or maybe it's because it's becoming old news to be in the early months of a pregnancy. Sort of a been there, done that feeling. But it's nice not to be obsessively checking the toilet bowl each time.


  1. Been following your blog since the beginning...

    Best wishes "this time around!"

  2. Just saw your news--congratulations!! I am crossing my fingers and toes for you, I hope everything goes well this time.

    My husband and I are still trying after my miscarriage back in October...but I'm optimistic that things will work out sometime in the next few months.

  3. Best of luck! I know the gut wrenching affects when things don't work out, so good thoughts from this neck of the woods.

  4. One optimistic hypothesis as to why you said no: your baby is doing great, developing just fine... and has already started to give you "mommy brain"...seriously, I totally believe that pregnancy, while a wonderous miracle of love and hope, leaves you with less brain function than you started with. I'm only partly joking. It's like the bigger the emryo/fetus grows, the more your neurons cease to fire. And it's sporadic; you can never know when stupity will strike. Maybe you'll be one of the lucky ones and remain mentally acute throughout the process. Here's hoping that's what happens.

    I also like the been-there-done-that reason.

  5. oops...see? how many typos were in that comment I just left? I bet my pre-baby brain wouldn't have made them! Ha.
    I so wish it was possible to edit comments on blogger!

  6. Shinyung, I've been going through some stuff myself recently and haven't been keeping up with my blog reading like I should, so I am way too late to the party, but I wanted to say a big fat wonderful huge CONGRATULATIONS! You have been in my thoughts, even as I have failed to read your blog, and I am so happy for your pregnancy and am sending you good thoughts for a healthy baby.

    As for me, I'm almost 37 weeks and on modified bedrest because of high blood pressure, and there is some concern that I may have developed pre-eclampsia. :( But the baby is healthy and hopefully we can keep her "cooking" for another 3 weeks! Sadly, however, the stress doesn't go away just because you make it through the first trimester.

  7. Congratulations (from a fellow JD with rebellious thoughts).

  8. I had the same feeling with my one and only successful pregnancy out of six.

    I just "knew" everything was going to be OK. There was no magic moment, no elixir, no guarantee, nothing appeared to be outwardly different or the same from any of my other pregnancies.

    But deep in my soul, regardless of what came out of my mouth, I knew I was going to carry to term and have a healthy baby. And that was the one and only time I did.

    I have never had that feeling before that pregnancy nor since.

  9. Shinyung, congratulations. I believe in that "instinct" too. I remember with my pregnancy, I felt of wave of instinctual confidence and things were fine. I'm a worrier so the sudden feeling of peace was great.

    Peace and blessing to you.